Last week I shared the analogy of Japanese art of Kintsukuroi as a way to illustrate God’s love for us. This week I want to share another analogy.
When I was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis four years ago, my whole life was turned upside down. My faith, independence, and fearlessness in life were threatened. I began to learn all I could about multiple sclerosis there was a lot of information about exercise, therapies, diet, medications, and positive thinking. And if anything, I became more fearful. That may not make sense, but right now there is no known cause or cure.
I found out that there was a lack of information about how we can move through our grief process while giving God the glory. Because God never gives up on us. Even though we may have fear and/or grief concerning a diagnosis we can still find victory in Jesus Christ. My book, Fearless, is about how my faith was strengthened and found hope, peace and grace in my Lord and Savior!
I have heard it said that our lives are like a kaleidoscope. Each time a kaleidoscope turns, there is another beautiful picture of combinations of bright colors. And at the center there has to be light, because without light, the kaleidoscope would just be dark. Jesus is the center of my kaleidoscope, and my life revolves around Him. He is also a light that shines through the colors that make them beautiful. He says in John 8:12, “I am the Light of the world. He who follows me shall walk not walk in darkness, but have the light of life.” In Matthew 5:16 Jesus says, “Let your light shine before men, that they may see your good works and glorify your father in heaven.” So not only is Jesus my Light, but I am His light to others. Paul tells us, “For you were once darkness, but now you are light in the Lord. Walk as children of the light for the spirit is all goodness, righteousness, truth.”
Life takes strange, yet beautiful, twists and turns—like each turn of the kaleidoscope. Whether it was dealing with a spouse that committed suicide, a divorce, a difficult relationship with a friend or family member, a job layoff and subsequent change, or being on unemployment, I have worked hard to maintain my optimism, strong faith, and “can do” attitude. I know that all things work for my good—if I will let them!! I may be diagnosed with MS, but that is not who I am. I am an intelligent, capable, and strong woman who has done incredible things and has an amazing life. I will continue to keep my eyes on God and His purposes for my life. I will adjust and be stronger for it. I am committed to seeing all the turns of my life through Jesus’s eyes instead of mine.
I began writing short articles for multiplesclerosis.net. I spoke about the various trials and tribulations that I was going through concerning this chronic disease. A very good friend of mine in Tacoma, Washington suggested I put all of my thoughts down into a book. I thought she was crazy! This is my first book that I have written and I look back and I wonder how I even did this. God was leading me every step of the way. I was a vessel of His grace and mercy. You can find information about it on my blog.